Oh it’s love
Not that I didn’t know before, because I think it every free moment my mind finds to wander to it, but I am so in love. I am so happy. No, I don’t have a job yet but I know I will soon. And it’s very possible that today I have found a PERFECT job, that is almost made JUST. FOR. ME. (no specifics yet, no jinxing this!)
But what I meant was I am finally so very content. I have found someone that is opposite me in way that makes us perfect together. Before, I wanted someone cookie cutter perfect. And I actually thought I had that before. I wanted someone the same religion as me, vowing to never date someone who wasn’t. I wanted someone who had been perfect their life before me (not that I was perfect, and no one is, but back to the point). I had someone close to that. Some who loved me & only wanted me. It was a true love that just turned comfortable and mundane. It’s sad to hear, but it happens. He loved me, but he did not give me things I needed. Yes, there are other things you need other than love. But they are apart of love.
Shawn has given me things that I did not have before. He encourages me to do my passions. He supports my dreams. He tells me everyday that I am the most beautiful/gorgeous/irristeable person he has ever laid eyes on. That I am his soulmate. He protects me and he betters me as a person, as I do for him. He’s not what I would have wanted years ago. But I was a child then. He’s not only want I WANT now, but something I need. He’s funny & intellegent & helpful & good hearted (with a mean streak) &
handsomesuper freaking hot, & amazing & all mine.
When I look at him, my heart pounds. When I think about him, my heart melts. Sappy, but it’s love, not just a glossy sticky ooze coming from the tree that is my heart.
He just welcomed me at the door with “Honey I’m home.” & a million kisses. Pulling away only to ask me “Do you know how much I love you?”
I am lucky to have him in my life.